Oh my Word So Busy!

Hey guys sorry I haven't posted in a while I've started a new job so been trying o get use to working since being unemployed since August 2011. Not been much of a weight loss I'm at 182 though..so not a gain. I hope to be in the swing of things by next week and going to the gym regularly and losing again. I also hope to be posting more again. I'm off tomorrow so I'll try and give a better update tomorrow!

Much lovies!!!

Why So Silent Lately

Hey guys... I'm still working on weight loss but here lately there's been something else at the front of my mind. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for 4-5 years. It just doesn't seem like it'll happen for us. And we know that it could happen for us in the next couple of years. We don't want use any form of artificial help such as medication or in vitro. Nothing against people who have that is just not something we want to do. So we are thinking of fostering. There are many many children out there who need a loving home and we hope to provide that home to some child. We hope to even adopt later on.

So wish us luck as we try to make this decision and get our home and lives ready for another member.

So that's why I haven't been on much.

New Hair Do!

Hey guys got a new hair do today. What you think?

Goals...

Okay I lost sight of my Aprils goals. So I'm going to try this again just setting weekly goals. It's Tuesday but here's this weeks goals!

• drink only water
• work out four days
• go walking at least once
• cut back on bread and taters

Maybe if I do little weekly goals I'll focus on them more....I don't know if mini goals like this is going to work for me. Seems the more I try to focus on little things like this the harder it is to accomplish. We will see I guess.

At this point I'm still pretty happy with my weight loss...because there is still a loss happening. I know I need to get back into working out like I was in the beginning though. I've tried tracking it and the more I try to force myself the more I DON'T go. I think I just need to relax and allow myself to go at will like I was before. 

What do you do to get out of a workout slump?

And now is tomorrow...

Day After Easter!

Hope everyone had a great Easter! I sure did spent it with my family and my extended family through my husband. Still working on losing the weight. I stepped on the scale this morning and was down to 182!! Yay me!

That's all for now I'm busy busy busy at the moment! Love you guys!

March Measurements

Decided to go ahead and do my measurements since I needed them for my Fitbook.

Current

Chest: 45.5 in.....or 38C my 40C's are to big now!
Upper Arm: 14 in
Waist: 39 in!! I cannot believe this number!
Hips: 45 in
Thigh: 25.5 in

Beginning


Bust:  48 in or 40C
Upper Arm: 14 in
Waist: 47 in
Hips: 48 in
Thigh: 28 in

That means I've lost 16 inches across my entire body holy cow!!!!! That makes me so happy like you wouldn't believe. I'm going to bed now with a smile on my face.

Oh yeah my weight when I started....195

My weight now......185

Goal Weight for July 169 or below!!! I need to lose 16 lbs in the next 3 months!! I can do this!

Fitbook & Tracking My Success

Hey Guys! I just got home and I am in love with my new little weight loss buddy....Fitbook. I've been thinking of getting one of these 12 week fitness and nutrition journals for a while but they were a little pricey. But I found one at a local store that was a couple dollars cheaper then the Amazon price and decided to get it.

Here's some photos!

I'm going to put my measurements in later.

12 Week Plan

Week 1...not finished filling out workout schedule

He wanted to see what Mommy was doing. This is Snyper.

Daily Workout Log

Daily Food Log

Both logs are side by side.

April's Goals

Okay guys...So I've been inspired by Kristin over at And She Ran. I am going to set some goals for myself for April so maybe I won't have a repeat of March's failures.

THE GOALS:

• Be able to do 1 hr on elliptical
• Go to park at least once a week
• Strength train twice weekly
• Yoga daily at least 10 mins 
• 4-6 hours in gym weekly
• No fast food french fries ( If we have them at home their homemade and baked)
• 6-8 glass of Water Daily (this should be easy considering I drink water almost exclusively) 

Another thing I'm going to do this month is keep workout clothes and my sneakers in the car with me when I go some place so that if the occasion arises I can change and get active without having to run home to change!

Another goal I have that is not really weight loss related is I need to get some sun! I am as white as a ghost. I have been getting out in the yard doing yard work and cleaning in the the windows and knocking down spider weds...We have black widows super bad here. I am wearing a low SPF sunblock though...don't want skin cancer....a girl does need some vitamin D though!

Looking Back @ March

Well I was sitting here thinking about March and my journey to getting fit and realized this month was kind of a failure. Life has hit me in multiple ways this past month and I should have worked through them better. I am not going to take measurements for March... I'll take measurements in the last week of April.

Also I am not going to look back at all the bad things in March..I'm going to list the good!!!

•  I got into a size L shorts from Old Navy
• I spent a wonderful weekend with Friends and Family that ended in a day in the mountains
• I did not gain!!!
• I am only 5 pounds away from 180
• I am 6 pounds away to saying good bye to 180 hopefully forever!!
• I worked through being sick and still exercised as much as possible
• I fell in LOVE with yoga and now consider myself a novice yogi

It's April now guys and I need to put my big girl panties on deal with life's little set backs and get this weight lose journey back on the road. I got 3 months to lose 16 pounds to be in the 160s by July. That's a little over 5 pounds a month. I CAN DO THIS!!!

Winter is Coming...

Eddard "Ned" Stark : Stark Motto

Woohooo! One of my favorite shows is premiering tonight at 9 EST on HBO..A Game of Thrones!!! I just recently started watching the first season (will watch the last episode tonight before Season 2 starts), and reading the books. I had looked at these books for a while but didn't think they were my cup of tea..boy was I sooo wrong!! They are friggin' amazing! Right now Daenerys and Jon Snow are my favorite characters.

Daenerys

Jon Snow

Do you watch or read George R.R. Martin's Game of Thrones?



If so who is your favorite character?

Okay....so my blog isn't about TV shows or books but I am just so excited about it!

So I've not been able to make it to the gym last couple of days but I have gotten some yoga in and plan on walking around the neighborhood some today when the husband leaves for work. I really miss working out every day and I need to get back into it. I may go tonight but I'm not sure because I need gas and well we're tight on money till my husband gets paid which sucks monkey butts.

Life's Kicking Me Down

Hey guys....today was not....good to say the least. My Dad and oldest brother found out that they will be jobless in three months time. Their factory is shutting down and moving to another state. My brother will be fine he's young and healthy....Dad is another thing though. He's pushing sixty and isn't healthy at all from years of heavy drinking and smoking...I doubt anyone will hire him..he know's that and we know that. I have never seen my Dad look so lost and beaten down as he did today. It just broke my heart to see him like that. I know that things will be okay though him and my mother have a good savings, he'll get a severance, and he's put into a retirement plan the entire time he's been there which has been for over 35 years.

On to my weigh in... I weighed in at 185. So that's a pound lost. I didn't weigh right this morning because I got the call about my family and ran out the house in a hurry so I'd eaten before I weighed...so I'm not really counting this weigh in.

I'm just in to much of a blah state. On top of my Dad and brother's news today, I never heard back about the job I thought I had. I went to two interviews for this place with two different managers and both seemed to like me and I really thought that I had it by the way they talked but I never heard from them and they told me they'd call yesterday. So today was once again spent putting in applications.

Annnnd.....my husband has put in over 90 hours at work this week alone. He has work since March 21st and will not have a day off until April 4th!!! I hate that he's killing himself working this much overtime. He works 12 hour shifts and twice this week alone he's work two 16 hour shifts. I miss him dearly and can't wait for his month 7 day break....that's one of the things I love about his job once a month they get seven days in a row off from the way their schedules work. Oh and did I mention that he works swing shifts? Nights one week days the next.

As you can tell I am in the dumps. Majorly!

DOWN A PANT SIZE!!

Kind of...LoL I went to Old Navy the other day to get some new shorts. All of my old ones from last year wear XXLs or XLs and they were all a lil baggy on me..the XLs not as bad. Well I decided to try on the Ls and I am so friggin happy that they fit amazingly and actually got baggy after about a couple hours wearing them...

Also all my bras I am having to wear at their tightest adjustment which is amazing because I refused to go above a 40D so the last time I bought bras (right after Christmas) they were all....a little tooo tight. But they are getting loose and it feels so great.

I've not weighed myself lately because I haven't been working out since the 17th because real life things have been getting in the way. I've been busy with the job hunt and interviews, babysitting, other family stuff, and such. Hopefully tomorrow I get a phone call saying I get the job that I went to the THIRD interview for today.

Even though I haven't worked out...although I did go in tonight for 45 mins, I have been active and we haven't ate fast food but 2 to 3 times these past two weeks. I've been cooking. Also, I have been active and on the go constantly. So I hope that when I weigh in this Friday my scale reads less then 186...I don't care what it reads as long as it's less then that!!

Wel that's all for now..I promise to get back into posting almost daily life has just been a little hectic. I've missed my lil blog it keeps me motivated and accountable for how hard I push myself. Well I'm off to relax for a bit then do some yoga before bed....g'night all!

Catching Up

Hey guys I kind of fell off the wagon this weekend with friends visiting and concerts and everything. I'm going t get back at it the rest of this week and hopefully will not see a gain. But if I do I'll know why and will try harder to stick to my guns the next time something like this weekend comes up. Will post more tomorrow night guys!

Weekend Photo Update!

Hey guys my weekend was full full full.  Here's a quick run down!

Friday: Missed weigh in...but I am still at 186..okay with that there wasn't a gain. Went to movis with the hubs,niece, and one of our friends.

me on right

Saturday: Went with all our friend to see a love metal-Christian band. And visited with some friends that were home out of town.

I'm the shortest in this photo lol..this is the band and all of us (they're called A Hero Remains)

Sunday: Went to the Smokey's with my hubs, our friend KEith, and my sister in law and her family.

in back of Jeep

rock slide that took up half the road

left: Keith...right: hubs elbow lol

Oh and on Thursday I worked on my flower bed..haven't got the flowers in yet but thsi is what's done!

Well that's it for now I need to go work on getting back on track with my weight loss. Love you guys! Buh-byes!

Tired

Quick up date...spent the day shoveling rocks and mulch in my flower bed. I am tired and sunburned so will not be going to the gym but I think after hours working with the rocks and mulch..I should be okay hahah. Will do a more in depth up date tomorrow. Good night and sweet dreams!

...I will do my nightly yoga though!

Loooooong Day

Today was sooo long but so good! We got up to 80 here today. I spent the day with the hubs and his sister and her kids. We started working in our rock garden to be. We decided to put plastic and weed barrier down and then we're going to top it with rocks. I'm going to try to get some hens and chicks to grow in it. I've got plenty of drift wood my uncle and I collected last year when the water was down low at the lake so going to put that in there as well.

hens and chicks!!

We only got the plastic and weed barrier down today we're going to price rocks tomorrow at a couple of places and will hopefully get it tomorrow. After that he went with our brother-in-law to visit a friend that had just had surgery. I stay at his sister's and played with the kids. The youngest one kept getting on my shoulders (I was sitting down bouncing was afraid to stand with her on my shoulders). I think it wore her out though....she later passed out on my arm one minute she's yapping then the next she's drooling on me.

poor J-baby

We finally came home. He decided to play xbox and I decided to hit the gym. Did 30 mins of cardio on the elliptical and 10 mins core and 30ish of weight lifting. So I'm worn out going to shower do my night time yoga and go pass out myself! 

Good night and sweet dreams everyone!

Walking in the Park

Had an awesome day with my niece she's close in age to me so we click really well. We went out to eat where I had some grilled chicken, baby carrots, and broccoli casserole. She had a HUGE piece of chocolate cake with ice cream and whipped topping; we had no idea it was so large so she kept trying to get me to eat some of it..I was like um nah..... I feel the calories creeping in just staring at it. We then went to the park and walked for a bit enjoying the sunshine and green grass. My feet are killing me though I wasn't expecting to go the park since we just randomly decided to go out and so I was wearing flip flops that gave me blisters right under my toes ugh!!

I'm excited about tomorrow too! Me and the hubs is going to do some yard work and start fixing up my flower bed. Since we moved here I haven't really done anything with it because it's mostly clay but I'm going to try putting down potting soil then mulch and see what I can get to grow! I'll try to remember to do before and after photos. Also me and my niece are planning on going back to the park we may even decide to take yoga mats and find a corner of the park to do yoga in!

BYE BYE FOR NOW! I've got house work to do and still need to go work out!

Better Hit the Gym

 Hey guys! I'm feeling so much better than I had the last couple of days. Still got a little bit of a cough and     a stuffy nose but nothing to bad. So I'm going to hit the gym hard tonight. I just finished about 10-15 mins of yoga. I did some strength building and flexibility poses. I've got to work extra hard this week to make up for this weekend of barely working out and spending most of my time in bed sick.

Tonight's plan....elliptical for 35 mins, rowing machine 5-10, seated rope climb 5-10, and cycle for 20-30 mins. Tomorrow night I'll do weight lifting and some form of cardio.

So what did I do today? Well let's see I woke up super early like 4 am early so I watched some TV, did some laundry, about noon-ish I took a short nap. When I got up went out with my MIL (mother in law....she's a big part of my life so you'll most likely see more about her later) we went to the mall got pedicures, checked out the new theater that just opened here, and then we went to eat. I had water and a 6oz steak with steamed broccoli...and two cheese sticks because she ordered them and wanted me to eat some with her. That's the only thing I've had today so will have a late snack before I hit the gym so I have time to digest before bed. After we ate we went and she got a new lawn mower which I will most likely be the one using..it's a push she has a riding one but I never learned how to use one and pushing's better any ways.

So that's the 411 on my day. How was yours? Hope everyone's doing great in all of their weight loss endeavors! Laters!!

I just thought this was pretty!

35 is not 0

Hey guys! I'm still pretty sick. I finally passed out early this morning and slept until noonish. I stayed in bed most of the day I felt so bad, and I had decided not to go to the gym even though I vowed I would. However, about 6:30 as I was lying in my misery my conscious kicked in and told me to get up and that I could do it. So up I got and on with the gym clothes and out the door I went. I was only able to do 35 mins of cardio 15 on cycle and 20 on the elliptical. By far no where near the intensity or the duration I would normally do and I was kind of bummed, but I told myself 35 mins is a lot better then 0 mins and every little bit helps. I was feeling a little spunky when I got home so did some relaxing yoga for about 15 mins. I'm hoping tomorrow I can get in my full hour of cardio though and by Monday be able to do my strength training. I stopped on my way home and stocked up on tissues and meds so that should help.

Sniffle Sniffle

I have felt so poohy the last two days the only exercise I've done has been yoga. I just feel to bad. My body is achy, throat is scratchy, nose is runny and for some reason burns when cold air hits it, my eyes are so watery it looks like I'm constantly crying, and I feel like there's a hundred lbs of pressure in my head. Whatever this is has hit suddenly and out of the blue. I went to my grandmothers was eating and noticed my throat was a little "off" by the time I left a few hours later most of the above symptoms had hit me. I think it's because of the weather being warm one day cold the next and the fact that I can't sleep to save my life. I'm dead tired right now but if I try to go to sleep I just toss and turn. I hope I get over this soon. I vow to go to the gym tomorrow no matter how krappy I feel.

Measurements & Weigh In

Last Months Measurements:

Bust: 40C (I'm just going to use my bra sizes to track this
Bicep: 14 in
Forearm: 11 in
Waist: 47 in
Hips: 48 in
Thigh: 28 in
Calf: 16 in

Current Measurements:

Bust: 40C same
Bicep: 14 in same (I have noticed it's not as jiggly anymore)
Forearm: 10 in  -1 in loss
Waist: 44 -3 in loss ( this surprised me I thin a lot of it was bloating)
Hips: 45 -3 in loss (yay!)
Thigh: 27 -1 in loss
Calf: 16 same


Total Inches Lost 8in!!!

Starting Weight: 195
Current Weight: 186

Total Weight Lost 9lbs!!


HOW I'm Feeling......


Well in about a months time I've lost only 9 lbs? That's little less then I expected, but at the same time I wasn't expecting to lose 8 ins across my body either so it equals out. I am happy with it. I know where improvements need to be made and what I need to work on to get better results next month.


Sorry I'm not writing this more energetically..I'm coming down with a cold had a sore throat, runny nose, and think I'm starting to run a fever. So that's it for tonight...good night and best wishes for whatever you are trying to accomplish in this life!!

Yogi

Hey guys just a quick update before I'm off to bed for the night....yes it is actually 5:25am here but once again...I get into my husband's sleep pattern and he works swing shifts; this week was the night shift...anyways!

I just wanted to tell you guys that I am absolutely in love with yoga and am now considering myself to be a new yogi. I am researching it as much as I can and today bought the book Slim Calm Sexy Yoga by Tara Stiles.

It is amazing. It tells you in description all the major yoga moves and gives you a series of yoga flows that do different things such as clear skin, help with insomnia (which I'm getting ready to do as soon as I'm finished with this post), depression, and many more. I love this book and it's going to be my little carry around for the foreseeable future. 

Well that's it for now. See you soon!

Happy vs Fatty

I was just reading a post by Maren over at From Cow to Wow and it got me thinking long and hard about how I have felt about myself and how happy this weight loss journey has made me when I've only reached such small successes so far.

Before I started this journey and even in past attempts I was a very negative person. Looking back now I see a lot about myself I don't like and a lot of that stemmed from being overweight and unhappy with myself.

Before I began:
I was moody
I felt unattractive
I slept all day
I was lazy
I had no desire
I picked fights with my husband
I was jealous of people who weren't over weight
I ate like a slob
I had horrible cycles
I couldn't accept compliments because I thought they were false
I was hateful a lot for no reason

Now:
My mood has improve 100%
I feel attractive even though I've only lost 9lbs it's more me now then my physical appearance
I only sleep 6-8hrs although it is still sporadic because my husband works swing shift
I get up and do more
I've got plenty of desire he may even say too much!
I'm not picking fights for no reason anymore
I'm not jealous because I know I'll be prouder having to work for it
Cycles are not as bad now (only had two since starting though)
I take compliments as truths
I'm a happy smiley person

My only personality flaw I can see right now is that because I am loving this so much I am trying to push it on loved ones or friends who may not care for it so much!


Some may say I was weak because I let being fat control my happiness but I say I am strong because I recognize that now and it is not an issue anymore.

Pre-Weigh In Weigh In

Okay so my official weigh in isn't until Friday now but I got on the scale today and was so excited about the number I just have to share!!

Last weigh in 2 weeks ago: 190
Today's unplanned weigh in: 186!!

I still plan to do my weigh in on Friday and measurements I was just so exitced to see that number I jumped for joy! Maybe Friday I'll be at 185!

Also something else I thought I should share. When I started this journey I bought a cheap scale and I know it is off a little bit because I've weighed myself at the gym, but I decided to stick with it now for a couple of reasons. First off, it's the one I started with and it may not be 100% or even 90% accurate however it is accurate enough to show if I've lost or gained. It's not digital so it doesn't show percents...which for me is okay I've said before I don't want to obsess about the scale I use it only as a guide for a general idea of where I'm at. I may change this later on but for now I'm happy with my nondigital cheapie!

First Time Yoga-ing

Well I gave yoga a try and I must say I think it's going to be something I add to my daily routine. I've been going through youtube videos trying to find one I thought I could do. Here's the one I did tonight and found it very relaxing yet there are a couple of moves that I was like what my body don't bend that way! I'm going to be doing some more research tonight later on.

I was amazed at how much tension I released in my shoulders. Another thing I like about this is as I do it I will notice results much faster by how far I can stretch or how some moves become easier for me to do.

While on the subject of yoga...I hope to someday be this skilled and strong. This video is amazing and so inspiring so please watch!

Girls Lift Too!!

Okays so I went to the gym tonight and it was my lifting night... I do 5-6 days of cardio and 2 days where I lift hitting all the major muscle groups...any ways. I was doing my rounds of the weight machines and I noticed the two younger guys kept watching me. I didn't pay them any attention at first but then I notice that when I would leave a machine they'd make they're way to it. Eventually I realized they were going and looking at how much weight I was using on the machine....I was like "WHAT THE CRAP THAT"S CREEPY!"

So all I have to say is...hey guys women lift too. No I'm not trying to bulk up; I'm building lean muscle to burn more calories and to look good naked...thank you and good bye!

Tired

Ahhhh! So tired today did not hardly sleep a wink last night..I think I finally fell asleep sometime after the sun came up! This may be due to the fact that my husband and his buddies decided to play ghost hunters last night and so every shadow had me jumping.....heheh anyways!

I didn't workout yesterday because I had to babysit, then went and visited with my mother in law, and then spent time with the hubs since last night was his only day off this week. I did spend about an hour chasing a four year old around outside and played one legged hop scotch over him when he tried to run me over with a big wheel. I plan on getting a really good work out tonight though so it's okay..the body needs a day to rest every now and again.

Will be updating again soon until then good day, good night, or good morning!!

Frustrated

I am so disgusted over one part of this weight loss journey. I know I know I'm just starting out and if I try to change to much at once I won't be able to stick to it, but I can not stop obsessing about what I eat. I actually cried the other night because I ate a whole thin crust buffalo chicken pizza in one setting. This was mainly due to the fact that I hadn't ate all day and because of bad storms we had dinner later then normal. I felt like shit afterwards. I felt like a fat slob that couldn't push the food away. I always focus on the bad days and not the good. I know that little slip ups won't kill me that I have to be able to eat what I crave sometimes but every time I do I freak out that there's going to be a gain on the scale this week not a loss....and mentally I know better I have changed a lot about how I eat and I'm exercising at least 6 days a week sometimes 7. I just wish that I didn't have to think about it because it brings me down...but I guess it's part of the process and if I don't think about it I can't reach my goals. One good way to look at it though is if I'm worrying about it this much I really am committed to this journey and will one day see that goal weight!

To Weigh Or Not To Weigh

The votes are in and I have decide NOT to weigh in today for two reasons.

Reason #1

My husband works a swing shift and I get into his sleeping pattern. Right now I am getting up at 2-4 in the evenings and staying up til 8 or 9 in the mornings. I hate doing that so I am staying up today so I can go to bed TONIGHT. Therefore I have not had any sleep, and I only weigh myself after having 7-8 hours of sleep so that when I weigh in I am not weighing all the food and water I have consumed for the day.

Reason #2

Mother nature has deemed it to be my week. Therefore, my weight is naturally inflated a bit and would not be an accurate measure. So by delaying this week I can one change my weigh in day to Friday....doing it on Thursday just seems odd to me. And by changing my measurement week hopefully mother nature will be come and gone the next time I do my measurements!


So yeah that why I will not weigh in this week...would be nice to see 4-6 lbs off next week!

Any ways....I did go work out last night at 10:30pm-ish mostly cardio but a lot of leg work so I guess today I need to do some core and upper body. I'm not sure when I'll go workout though. Trying to decide the best time to go. I hate going when it's crowded....honestly I'll most likely be going here very soon so I can get there and out before it gets busy. I'm hoping if I go between 6-8 that everyone will be commuting to work, dropping the kids off, or still sleeping. Or should I just do an at home workout? I don't feel like those are as...rewarding. Yeah I'll go to the gym.


I haven't forgot I promised photos of my new sandals will take pictures as soon as suns up and will post later today! Tootles for now!

Loving Working Out

I have come to realize that I absolutely love working out. I am addicted to that after high and the stress relief. I wake up thinking about going and go to sleep thinking about going. I have never felt like this on past attempts to lose weight and it boggles my mind every time I think about why I didn't get that feeling before. I know that once I can get into good eating habits that the weight is just going to melt away and I'm going to look and feel great..I just got to be patient.

Off topic I went shopping for some sandals today! It's been warmer than normal for this time of year here and I am a flip flop or bare foot girl at heart! So I went looking around and found some great sandals by Teva. I just love them. Also got a pair of flip flops from Target that I just adore. I love owls and there's an owl design on the heel of the flip flops. I'm going to paint my nails tonight and will take pictures tomorrow and show you!

65 Reasons Why

I need to lose 65 pounds so here are 65 reasons why!!

1.       To feel better

2.       To look better

3.       To be happy

4.       To be stronger

5.       To be proud

6.       To look good naked

7.       To live longer

8.       To be healthy

9.       To be a role model

10.   To make my haters jealous

11.   To feel sexy again

12.   To be run

13.   To breathe easier

14.   To sing longer

15.   So I don’t have to catch my breath

16.   So I can wear skinny clothes

17.   So I can wear a bikini

18.   So I can be fit

19.   So that I look toned

20.   To have abs

21.   To be noticed

22.   To eat better

23.   To think clearer

24.   To have energy

25.   To break bad habits

26.   To make my mom proud

27.   To prove I can do it

28.   So I can keep up with my brothers

29.   So I can wrestle my husband like we use to

30.   So I can buy lingerie

31.   So I don’t feel fat

32.   So I am ot conscious of my weight

33.   So I can out run the zombies one day

34.   So I can dance for hours

35.   So he can show me off

36.   So he can pick me up and throw me on the bed

37.   So I can be the one of top all night

38.   So I can take the stairs

39.   So I can jump for joy

40.   So my knees don’t ache

41.   So I have biceps

42.   So I have a heart shaped rear

43.   So I can make him go wow all over again

44.   So I’m not called ompa lumpa ever again!!

45.   So I can flex my muscles and see them

46.   So I don’t have to move the car seat back to get past the wheel

47.   So I don’t have to worry about breaking something if I sit on it

48.   So the my body is proportionate to my 5’1 height

49.   So people don’t recognize me at my HS reunion

50.   So I can hear people so wow how much did you lose!

51.   Because less weight means more sex

52.   Because I need to love myself

53.   Because it improves my chances of getting pregnant

54.   Because it improves my baby’s health if I do get pregnant

55.   Because I don’t want to hear the excuse it’s genetics anymore

56.   Because I am not big boned

57.   Because I want to buy new clothes in single digit sizes

58.   Because he may love me in this shape but I want him to love me in great shape

59.   Because I want people to see my before photo and say that couldn’t have been you

60.   Because I want to eat without shame

61.   Because I want my clothes to be TOO BIG instead of TOO TIGHT

62.   Because diabetes, cancer, and heart attack run in my family and I want to die of old age

63.   So when I walk by a mirror I like my reflection

64.   So that he gets possessive when other guys look at me

65.   So that I can live my life worrying about the important things and not how I look or how other people see me. 

Post Workout & Photos!

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Hey Guys! Well I had my session with the trainer and it went great! I loved the girl I worked with she was amazingly sweet and very encouraging! She pushed me as hard I could go without injuring myself and even complimented me that I was stronger then she thought I'd be and did more then she expected. I wish I had the 400 something dollars to meet with her once a month for a year! But I learned a lot and will be using what we did today to build on my workouts. 

I did have an issue when I was leaving today..nothing to do with the gym or the workout, but as I was leaving I noticed walking out someone was sitting on my husbands car.... now his car is his second love after me. It's a 2011 Mustang California Special. Any ways I politely asked the guy to get off of it and he just looked at me called me a "fat bitch" and walk away with his friends. Why do people have to be so rude and just plain ignorant? I'm glad my husband wasn't with me because he most likely would have decked the guy, but I wish I had pepper spray on my key chain....which I will have next time I go. It's sad that people act this way. Oh well his words didn't really bother me considering the guy was alot bigger than I am...

Any who! I told you about going shopping yesterday so here are some photos of the two outfits I got and...some photos to use as my before photos...really hated the ones I use to have up so going to use these ones!! Enjoy...well not really but here they are...oh and these are post workout!

I did not allow myself to "suck it in"

Snyper and Gunny are sniffing my shoes heheh

What am I looking at?

Here's the other outfit

Well that's it for now!! Good night!

SO NERVOUS!

Quick pop in bout to get ready to go meet trainer wish me luck! Will update later tonight!!!

New Clothes and a Trainer

Hey guys! I spent today all day shopping! It was wonderful been a long time since I've had a shopping day where I got to really shop. Any ways...started off the day with the hubs and our best friend Keith. We went to Academy Sports store and out to eat. After that I went with my MIL and my niece to the mall. I got to new workout outfits and a new sporty kind of purse. Oh and two tops and some flipper floppers! Then went to eat with them to lol. I had hot wings for lunch today so kept dinner light with a cesar salad no dressing and a bowl of clam chowder...not the best but not my worst either. At least I've kept to drinking only water.

Can't wait for 5pm tomorrow I'm meeting with the Fit Coach/trainer at my gym! I'm a little nervous but a lot excited at the same time...I just wish Aunt Flo wasn't visiting me this week.....oh well what's a girl to do!!

I'll post some pictures tomorrow of my new outfits and an update of my face wonder if I can tell a difference in my face yet....

BUH BYE!!!

So Happy Can Focus Now!

Okay so have had some financial issues lately but they are now taken care of so I can rest peacefully again and begin focusing on my weight loss yay!!!

That Happy Feeling

I've been struggling with depression for numerous reasons but I had thought for a while that it was a little okay a lot out of proportion for the factors behind it....like my reasons were the size of a grain of rice but my depression was the size of a semi...does that make sense?

Well I'm happy to tell you since I've began this journey my depression has gone away. I still have days of worry and I get a little depressed about some things, but those are natural worries and I'm not obsessing about them anymore...

I think working out is really the therapy I needed. After a workout I feel so...light hearted. I can do an hour of cardio and when I'm done and back in the car I find myself smiling for no apparent reason.
I can giggle again..yes GIGGLE DAMNIT!! I feel my age and not beyond it..and it's not just that I feel good physically I feel amazing mentally! Not to mention that my husband is thrilled that my libido is going back up ((laughs hysterically)). Even if I gave up on the losing weight....which I'm not going to...I'd still go workout just for this high it gives me.

Food Addiction

Man I have seriously been struggling with food...my portions are still down but I am eating way to many bad foods and I know that eventually this is going to hurt my progress no matter how much I work out. I just get to craving certain things and can't help myself. I'm not gorging myself though so that's good but I have got to find something that helps me deal with cravings otherwise I could so handle eating healthy.

Another thing that's been on my mind concerning food is how to deal with eating at my mother's and grandmother's house....my mom is pretty good about offering to alter how she is cooking to suit my weight loss needs and I haven't really approached my grandmother about it. I feel so bad about saying anything.

Okay at my mom's it's not a big deal because we don't eat to socialize there I just go down on weekends to see my family and normally end up eating dinner there. At my grandmother's though we get together every Thursday for dinner. A lot of what she cooks is fried or buttered or cheese covered and I love her food. If I don't eat enough she thinks it's cause her food isn't good or that I am sick. I know I just need to sit down and tell her that I am trying to change me life for the better and that though her food is amazingly delicious I can't eat a lot of it because I have a weight issue.

I hope one day that food is no longer an addiction but a maintenance action for me I don't want to give up all the foods I love but I do hope I won't always have to fight myself when it comes to food selections.

Gym Jitters?

So does anyone else have this issue? Do you get the gym jitters? Feel like you look like a fish out of water and your not using a piece of equipment right and everyone's laughing at you? I haven't had a bad experience I just feel weird...I defiantly get a better workout when there is less people there because I don't feel like I am being watched.

I've just been going in and doing some treadmill, elliptical, rower, and rope climbing (the seated or standing version not actually climbing), but I don't feel like this is enough even though I am going for an hour or so. I know I need to get in some weight lifting but it is so intimidating going to the "weight section" for one I have actually only once seen a female in that area and I honestly don't know where to start. I've been looking at things online but I am just at a loss honestly and don't know what to do.

OH well...just another obstacle for me to over come..no worries I'll figure it!!

Weigh In Yay!

Just a reminder!!

Hey well today was that dreaded day when I had to step up on the scale..and you know what I lost 2lbs this week. Last week's weigh in I had a 1lb gain because I had  kind of failed on my eating and wasn't working out hardly as much...so I was 192 last week and am at 190 this week. True not a 4lb lost like the first weigh in but 2lb is pretty good and is actually the recommend max to lose in a week...I can easily reach my goal as long as I loose at least 2 pounds a week..and losing one pound on hard weeks won't hurt me to bad. From this point if I lost 2lbs a week I could weight 154 but the middle of July..and my goal is only for 165 so I am not at all discouraged by this number.

I read a great article today that really put things in prospective for my weight loss and that slow really is the way to go and in the big scheme of things and my goal slow isn't really as slow as it seems. You can find that article here! I love that the author talks about the show "The Biggest Loser" since it had become one of my addictions and how you can't compare your progress to theirs because 1. they are a lot bigger then me 2. they had dietitians and trainers on site to hold them accountable 3. they are working out more in one day then I have to time for.

So I am very happy right now and can't wait for next weeks weigh in..also if I don't forget next week will also be my measuring day to see if I've lost any inches yet. Got to hit the gym hard this week wish me luck!!!

Tomorrow!!!

Tomorrow is weigh in day ahh! I'm so nervous, but that's okay. Loving my gym membership I've been every day since I got it except today because I had some family things to do and by the time I could go it was really late and my husband is at work so I'm just going to do some workouts at home tonight. So I'll update my progress tomorrow!!!

Workout Tunes

What I work it out too to keep up the intensity!!

•  Turn Me On ( David Guetta fet. Nikki Minaj )
• White Rabbit ( Egypt Central )
• I Like It ( Enrique Iglesias )
• The Pride ( Five Finger Death Punch )
• I Hate You ( Five Finger Death Punch )
• Papi ( J-Lo )
• Stronger ( Kanye West )
• Stronger ( Kelly Clarkson )
• Walk Away ( Kelly Clarkson )
• Firework ( Katy Perry )
• Tik Tok ( Ke$ha )
• Blah Blah Blah ( Ke$ha )
• Sexy and I Know It ( LMFAO )
• Sorry for Party Rockin ( LMFAO )
• PArty Rockin ( LMFAO )
• T.H.E. ( Will.I.Am fet. J-Lo and Mick Jagger )

That's just some of my favorite songs in the gym...not nearly all of them!!!

Ta ta for now!!!

Going 2 the Gym

Hey guys! I'm still here and working it. The hubs got me a two year membership to The Rush a local gym chain. I friggin looooooove it. He got the family pack so we can both go. Tonight was our first trip there. He worked out and lifted weights with a friend he grew up with. I on the other hand did my own thing. Here's what I did for my first workout.

30 mins on elliptical doing various inclines and resistances.
10 mins rowing
5 mins seated rope climbing
15 treadmill at a 2.5-2.9 speed and 1 incline

Not bad for my first gym workout if I do say so myself. I can't wait to try one of their Zumba classes!! I'm really psyched about this weeks weigh in. I do need to watch what I eat better though I have been slacking in that department.

LATERS!!!

Back Tracked Weigh In

It's really hard for me right now to write this post. I feel like I've failed myself this week and honestly I have. I thought about the reasons  why I failed in my goals this week and I realize those are just excuses and if I'm ever going to make a body change for the healthier I have to learn to get past the issues that hindered me this week.

I could tell you that this week has been hard for me because I'm stressed about issues with money right now. I could tell you I've stuck by my promise to not go walking alone to my husband because of his scare on Sunday. I could tell you many reasons why I failed this week, but they're just excuses and like this season of "The Biggest Loser" there are going to be NO excuses and I've got to work through them.

Now I'm being pretty hard on myself....

But last week I lost an amazing 4lbs in one week going from 195 to 191. However this weeks weigh in came in at 192. True that was only ONE lb gain but  I wanted at least ONE pound loss since my goal is 6+ pounds a month. I could say well it's just a one lb flux and that's normal but once again that is another excuse. This early in my weight loss I should be losing not maintaining or fluctuating right now.

Simple fact is I haven't worked out since Sunday and I have ate fairly well but not completely. So I know what I need to do and just need to do it.

My goal for next week's weight in is 3 lbs or 189lbs. Wish me luck!!!

Lazy Day

Hey guys I'm not working out today...haven't fallen off the wagon or anything I'm just bummed about losing my phone and some other things right now and I don't really feel good. I just decided to give myself a free day to relax and rest up because I know I need to go hard the rest of this week. So Later! Stay Fit!

Can You Hear Me Now?

Hellos! Well today started out lovely.....NOT!! I got up was feeling yuck but I pushed myself to go walking any ways....wish I had stayed home. Walked for an hour; 30 mins out and 30 back.....got to my car to realize I had dropped my cell phone along the way...so walked ANOTHER HOUR trying to find it with no luck. I went home and had my sister in law who lives next door to call it in case someone had answered...no luck...she calls my hubby to let him know I'd lost it.. I always text him when I'm starting and ending a walk...needless to say he had gotten worried about me had tried to text me and this was what happened


Hubbys cell: Hey goddess whatcha doin?

My Cell: Dunno who goddess is but obviously she lost her phone finders keepers bitch bye now gotta go make some calls

So had my phone deactivated and I am without until we get paid...on top of that hubby got so worried cause he hadn't heard form me he used pto time at work to come home...he did this before his sister got a hold of him for me. Also, he through a fit and doesn't want me going walking alone anymore. However, he is going to get me an elliptical with our income taxes so I can work out at home!!! Yay!!

Well that was my day I'll share some photos later...I'm sure I'll eventually go back out walking but not until he cools down he is very protective and it freaked him out he thought something had happened to me. Love my man....

Any ways....laters and stay fit!!

Changed Blog Name

You might have noticed a change in the blog title I thought curvaceous muffin was to silly and wasn't serious enough...this journey is something that I AM SERIOUS about so wanted a title to reflect that. Hope you like!

RIP Zed

Hey guys,

I'm sorry I don't feel like talking about my walk or what I ate or any of that tonight. Right now I'm hurting. You see, my cat at my parents house who we got when I think I was 10 or 11 was killed Friday by a Pit Bull whose owner let it run free. I'll miss him he was an orange tabby with dark orange stripes and his name was Zedicus Zolzorrander....that was from a book my older brother use to tell me about he was a wizard, but we called him Zed. He was a great cat very loving and would keep mice out of Dad's garden. It's weird because a few days ago I had a nightmare that my chihuahua and dachshund Snyper and Gunny had got out of the house and were killed by wild dogs. I guess my subconscious was trying to prepare me for the news. What makes me even madder is that my Momma called the law and they said there was nothing they could do. This dog is a house dog whose owners let out from time to time...the officer didn't even want to go speak to the owner until my brother through a fit about it. I tell you what I know dogs and cats have their issues and it's a dogs nature to go after a cat but if I EVER run into said owner....well let's hope I can keep my cool because if I had been the one to find Zed I would have done something really stupid. I wish I had a picture to share but I don't...


GOOD BYE ZED I LOVE YOU BABY!!

Over 7,000 Steps

Today I took a journey....of  over 7,000 steps and it was amazing. You see I've been walking a little further each day and today when I went walking I had two new companions, a pedometer and a mp3 player. The mp3 player was a great idea it seems my walk was more charged and because I was into the music my mind wasn't on  my feet or legs starting to burn. The pedometer told me just how many steps I took which really surprised me. The trail I've been walking though goes through out our town and it is huge. The portion I walked was about 3.5 miles one way and I had to walk it back. I think that's what I love about walking I can't cheat it. I walk until I think I can't take anymore...then have to turn around and walk the same distance back. There's only one bench along the way and it's in kind of a secluded area so I wouldn't even consider stopping to rest there so this is perfect.

I didn't have my phone or camera on me but next time I'm going to take one and get a picture of this big tree. I don't know why but looking at it today (this is the first time I've gone this far on the trail) it made me think of how strong I really am and that I DO have the ability to reach my goals just as this HUGE tree  was reaching up high into the sky. I have deemed this tree my tree of inspiration. Corny...I know, but oh so true.

Sadly, that's all the workout I got today because me and my husband went out with a friend and didn't get home to late and I'm getting ready for bed. Just wanted to stop by and share my success of the day with you. Tootles!

Muffin Weighs In!! (week 1)

Ohmigosh I almost forgot today was Thursday and my weigh in day! I only weighed in I think I am going to do the measurements less often for one I am bloated because Aunt Flo stopped by this week for a visit and I don't want to play a numbers game as I've said before. Anyways on to the number WE'LL ALL WAITING TO KNOW......

STARTING WEIGHT: 195
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I'm down 4 pounds in one week and my monthly goal is at least 6 a month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is a great start I am not discouraged by this number AT ALL!!! I know what I've done this past week and where I can improve so YAY ME!!!!

A New Workout?!?!?!

Hahahah so I had a new workout yesterday! I played Lumber Jill! Okay hold on let me elaborate. My uncle sales fire wood and he has a friend that has a tree removal service. Said friend calls him up and says hey I got some oak for you. Oak is a great selling wood because it burns long and hot, anyways. My uncle gets there and loads up his trailer....the logs that they give him are longer than I am tall AND 2-4 times as big around..these things are huge and heavy.  Not only this but he had like 6 trailer loads or more. I helped him with his last load on Tuesday night and then yesterday he called and asked if I could come help that he had two more loads.

So how did I help? I was the hook tender! I would jump up in the trailer climb over the logs wrap a chain around one then hook it to his tractor he'd pull it out until the forklift on his tractor could reach it then I'd rechain it to the forks or depending on the size of the log I might just roll it onto the forks. Also I was lifting out and tossing the few odd pieces that were small enough for me to lift. Then I would climb on the wood pile he was putting the logs on and retrieve the chains off the log returning to the trailer to do it another hundred times!

Needless to say it was one hell of a workout, but I'm not complaining there's something about doing work like that. It gives me a sense of accomplishment and an inner peace. It feels good to do work like that and plus it feels good to do something for a loved one. My uncle that I was helping is in cancer remission and although he does stuff like that all the time by himself I know it has to wear him out and make him sore because the type of cancer he had attacked his bones too. So I love being able to give him a hand when he needs it.

Well I got things to do and places to be later so tootles for now Muffins!!!

My Morning & My New BF

Good morning Muffins! How is everyone today? I am doing wonderful!!! I got up about 6 this morning ate an English cucumber and some baby carrots for breakfast, watched a little TV, and read a little bit. Then I had a super early lunch...think I needed some protein with breakfast I got hungry about 8:30 so made 2 small portabella mushrooms broiled with some spices and low fat cheese. After which I went walking. Now I've been going to the local walking trail or green way as it's know here, but today I decided to save gas and go walking in the neighborhood behind my house. To get to it I have to walk up a huge steep hill but that's a great thing is it not? It really got my heart pumping before I had even really started really walking. I also added 3lb hand weights to my walking so I can get some work in for my arms this way. I'm really proud of myself I'm doing a little more each day then I did the last and I really hope to see some results in the next couple of weeks. I know I've set a goal for myself of about 6 pounds a month but the more the better! I'm not going to be unrealistic but I am hoping for the best possible results as I can get.

Yesterday I also received my order from Amazon! Yay! What was it you ask? Well it was Jillian Micheals' 30 Day Shred. It's got 3 levels of twenty minute workouts. I did the first one last night and let me tell you....damn. I busted my tush and still couldn't keep up with the beginner workout and I'm sore from it today. She really encourages you not to take more then a 5 second break but there was a few times that I just couldn't do some of the exercise although they seemed super simple at first. I would take a break but I'd keep moving. She does tell you that your endurance will build until you can do the whole workout so I'm going to keep at it. I'll do level one until it it becomes easy then move on to level 2 and so forth to level 3. After that maybe I'll combined them all for one hell of a workout!! I've got two more of her dvds...well one is still on its way but they seem more advanced and I will probably not be doing them for a couple of weeks. One is No More Trouble Zones....which I tried and about died, and the one that hasn't arrived is Banish Fat, Boost Metabolism.

My New Best Friend (even if she can be a bitch)