I was just reading a post by Maren over at From Cow to Wow and it got me thinking long and hard about how I have felt about myself and how happy this weight loss journey has made me when I've only reached such small successes so far.
Before I started this journey and even in past attempts I was a very negative person. Looking back now I see a lot about myself I don't like and a lot of that stemmed from being overweight and unhappy with myself.
Before I began:
I was moody
I felt unattractive
I slept all day
I was lazy
I had no desire
I picked fights with my husband
I was jealous of people who weren't over weight
I ate like a slob
I had horrible cycles
I couldn't accept compliments because I thought they were false
I was hateful a lot for no reason
Now:
My mood has improve 100%
I feel attractive even though I've only lost 9lbs it's more me now then my physical appearance
I only sleep 6-8hrs although it is still sporadic because my husband works swing shift
I get up and do more
I've got plenty of desire he may even say too much!
I'm not picking fights for no reason anymore
I'm not jealous because I know I'll be prouder having to work for it
Cycles are not as bad now (only had two since starting though)
I take compliments as truths
I'm a happy smiley person
My only personality flaw I can see right now is that because I am loving this so much I am trying to push it on loved ones or friends who may not care for it so much!
Some may say I was weak because I let being fat control my happiness but I say I am strong because I recognize that now and it is not an issue anymore.
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