Friday, March 2, 2012
Frustrated
I am so disgusted over one part of this weight loss journey. I know I know I'm just starting out and if I try to change to much at once I won't be able to stick to it, but I can not stop obsessing about what I eat. I actually cried the other night because I ate a whole thin crust buffalo chicken pizza in one setting. This was mainly due to the fact that I hadn't ate all day and because of bad storms we had dinner later then normal. I felt like shit afterwards. I felt like a fat slob that couldn't push the food away. I always focus on the bad days and not the good. I know that little slip ups won't kill me that I have to be able to eat what I crave sometimes but every time I do I freak out that there's going to be a gain on the scale this week not a loss....and mentally I know better I have changed a lot about how I eat and I'm exercising at least 6 days a week sometimes 7. I just wish that I didn't have to think about it because it brings me down...but I guess it's part of the process and if I don't think about it I can't reach my goals. One good way to look at it though is if I'm worrying about it this much I really am committed to this journey and will one day see that goal weight!
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Oh honey, don't be so hard on yourself. Remember it took time to put this weight on and it will take time to take it off. Do yourself a favor and find food that you like, that's low in fat easy to grab or make. Emphasis on easy and I'm not saying it has to be in the whole food category either. Just whatever you LIKE and it won't make you feel bad for eating it. Come up with a list and adopt them as your new life long friends. I truly believe having a very limited, I can eat these without feeling bad and I like them items. Makes all the world in the difference. We ask so much of ourselves, learn how to recook, how to exercise, how to think. Make this easy for yourself for awhile. I can eat this and this and this and I won't bother with anything else for awhile. Does that make any sense at all??? Until you get to that point, don't beat yourself up and start to EAT get bars if you have too, whatever it takes.
ReplyDeleteOh and don't weigh yourself at all. Go by the size of clothes your wearing. I weighed myself a year ago, at six months and last week. Thats it for awhile year it was amazing!!